wasted weekend

goddd!!!!!   life's soooo idiotic at times..... complicated.... soo annoyingg.. so depresssing......  bloody shitt....    n some people are tooo difficult for me to understand. 

not like m gonna be here for longgg.... its jus a couple more months... n then its gon be a new environment n all... n stuff...   perhaps then people will miss me. i mean... i just.... oh fuck. 

i dunoo wads real n wads not. n it kills me not to know. despite all this shittt.....  i was listenin to adam's finale song today.... called "No Boundaries"....  such a beautiful songg.... hard feelings.... i can totally relate to the lyrics....  but sadly, the song now belongs to Kris Allen. 

Adam Lambert - No Boundaries 

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe

Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes

There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

 ~~~ 

another wkend wasted....i hav rele given up on uu i guess...its now rele up to uu. 

~ if i can't have you, i dont want nobody babe ~

mad world .....

this is indeed another American Idol title..gone. i mean...Kris Allen is a great singer....has personality....n all.. i think his records will sell. Americans hav once again shown their voting skills. bunch of sore losers. its some kinda curse that AI has so in a way, i'm glad Adam dint win. the runner-ups have always made it bigger than the title winners themselves. as for Adam, we know he sure will. :) 

ADAM LAMBERT... babe.... oh goddd... he connects with each n every soul in the audience in an authentic manner.... he's ICONIC. 

for one his performances, he did "Mad World"which was originally written by Tear For Fears in the 80's...n then there was the Gary Jules version.... n now we hav Adam's version which is here to stay..... foreva...

the lyrics touched my heartt... coz..it is a mad world indeed. 

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
A raunchy young world
Mad world

~ proud to be madd ~

: )

i know its been a really long time...n blah blah... 

i have started working for TCC limited. been more than a month. 

worse so... its been quite some time since i spoke to jiveshh... oh goddd... can anyone eva explain that...  :(

i mean.. i feel tired afta returning from work everyday that... i feel lazy to blog. besides..i have been having soo much fun at work...    my HR, kalis is THE BEST n i found a friend...Dean James Edward Cullen Borris.... who is this amazing caucasian guy... a.k.a model...a.k.a singer..a.k.a dancer...a.k.a actor.... n most most importantly the most mad person on earth. he PERSONIFIES the word mad. rele. trust me on this. oh godd!!! he's is super mad...

n has driven me mad... so now...m more psychotic than evah!!!!!!!!!!!!

but guess wad... i jus love myself more..the crazier version 19.0.... just so happenin!!!! 

n well... he does my hair n make-up....n does a fantastic job !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

hahahaa........... oh wait..he did my nails for me as welll.... goshhh

both of us can jus laugh n laughh n laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! non-stop....we lean on the walls...we jump arnd when we laugh...coz..we laugh jus soo hardd.... bloodyy arse!!!!!!!!!!!!!! goshhhh  hahahahaa.....

we have our stupid ridiculous moments n nonsensical stuff... 

n we do hav our sad moments..of which...we'r pretty much in the same boat now.. i mean.. yea..he knws wad m tokin about... ( i rele hope his frnd replies to him )   

n yea...basically that's wad's been happenin so far... n lalalalalalaaa.... lallalalaa.a...wad else...eermmm....

i dunoo... 

i still dun feel quite happyy.... there's something..missing somewhere... m rele lost in my own world.... 

n the most impt thing of alll.... 

i hav started lissening to 70's n 80's n 90's music.... n i have finallly decided that my fav song no matter wadd....till death..will be  " Lady " by Modjo.   its such a swt n genuine songg....i'm gonn make him sing it to me one day.... hahaaa.... 

i have been lissenin to samantha fox...Queen...Donna Summer... Abba...whitney Houstan... n so many others... its rele getting to me...oh..ya... Chaka khan's through the fire... n alll.... its rele interesting..how almost all songs from those era..were about sex either in the most hideous or explicit manner. its beautiful. i simply lurvee it.   

n of course.... my thanx..goes to.... lalala.... Dj!!!! ( Dean..) ... he's the wonderful soul who's been introducing all these to me... hahahahaa.....he's mad... i'm mad.... n u knw waddddddd????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

" YOU'R MAD WITH ME " !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

~latinolovebird~